Merry Christmas

Here it comes–Christmas is merely days away.  On one hand, it feels as though that blessed day has been on its way since mid October, when I first saw Christmas items at market.  By now, we have each heard enough Christmas music to render us vegetables, seen enough manufactured Christmas cheer to harden our hearts, and been dehumanized in public enough times to wonder what in God’s name He was doing coming here to save us, anyway.

We trample people to death when they stand between us and the goods we want, after all.  All in the name of providing a “meaningful gift.”

The Advent Conspiracy tells us that we Americans spend tons more money each year during Christmas than we would need to spend if we, collectively, decided to end the world’s water problems. The WHOLE WORLD’S water problems! I am humbled to think that we could make this world better, but we choose not to….

And everywhere I go I hear people making a big deal about saying “Merry Christmas,” rather than the unholy “Happy Holidays,” as if what we say, alone, will magically change the hearts of the people we are around, who see us as obstacles rather than as people that God loves. I have also read articles from several sources that delight in reminding us all that Christmas was not likely as it is in our Christian story (who knows how many wise men came, how old Christ was when they arrived, whether he was born in a cave or what we think of as a  stable, if Jesus was born in April, or if Mary was, indeed, a virgin?).  What remains, aside from the trivia, is what matters most: God came here.

Call it Holidays or Christ-mas, next week we celebrate God doing something totally new. We celebrate the truth that the creator of all things went out of his way to show us love, knowing how we’d react (think, again, of the Wal-Mart trampling for a glimpse of the human nature Jesus came to love).  This bit from Stephen W. Simpson, PhD sums it up, for me:

“Manger” is just a cute word that hides the fact that the Son of God spent his first night in a place where sheep ate. Jesus was born poor, against the backdrop of impropriety.

He could have done it another way. He could have descended from heaven in a flaming chariot. He could have emerged from the ocean, bellowing with righteous rage as he struck down evildoers. Or he could have not come at all, leaving us to worship a distant God who has no idea what it’s like to be human.

Clearing the record about things like donkeys and wise men doesn’t show us the real truth of Christmas. The power of the Christmas story has little to do with who did what and when. It doesn’t matter if Jesus was born on December 25 or on Flag Day. What matters is that he came into the world as a fragile human being, a baby boy in the care of a teenage girl with a skittish husband. God showed us that humility and grace mean so much more than power and glory. Once we clear away the decorations and the subterfuge, we see God revealed in an impoverished infant. I don’t know the mind of God, but it seems like he was making a point.

May we tangibly feel our blessings this year; May we finally get the point, at last.  Merry Christmas to you!

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Happy Birthday, Dear Mia!



Yep, it is that time of year once again: Mia Emmeline turned 6 today!  I don't really know how to articulate how that fact makes me feel.  On one hand, it delights me every day that I see her as the big girl that she is.  She is smart and funny and she is always upbeat (except for when she isn't, but that's usually when she is tired).  Mia loves to sing and be silly, and nothing delights her more than music, it seems.  It is amazing to think back to where she came from, when she was a tiny preemie, to where she is, now.

On the other hand, thinking back like that makes me sad because I miss my baby Mia.  I delight in my little girl Mia, but baby Mia is still inside my heart, too.

So, I choose to ignore the pang that comes when I notice how capable and independent she is, and I choose to applaud her for getting to be such a big girl.  She has always been her own person, even in the hospital, and I think she is turning out wonderfully.  Watching her blossom is the best part of life, to me.

So, happy 6th, little pumpkin.  Tonight, we will celebrate at Bruno's with more people who love you.

(Click HERE for last year's entry)




Twenty-five random things about me (because this is my blog, damn it!)

1. I have an irrational need to always be “the good guy.” It is subconscious, so there’s not much I can do about it.
2. I would rather be real, though. That’s my struggle.
3. The closest thing I know is the love I feel for my daughter. Before she came, I didn’t really know what love is. I can’t say I’ve mastered it, but I know, now.
4. My favorite color is deep blue. It gives me peace.
5. I crave simplicity, but I make things complicated.
6. Inside, I feel today pretty much the same as I did when I was seven years old.
7. I have an auditory memory, so I can usually recall things said and music verbatim.
8. I have daring dreams, but have always felt selfish when I wanted to chase them. That might be the tiny tragedy of my life.
9. I really admire people who can write creatively.
10. I wish I could truly start fresh. That would be revolutionary in all parts of my life.
11. I have a terrible sense of time. I have about five watches, but I can’t accurately estimate how long things take, so I am often late.
12. I am attracted to Indian/Asian culture, for no apparent reason.
13. Spiders creep me out. I am not scared of them, but I impulsively try to kill them, despite knowing that they are good bugs. My excuse is that they supposedly crawl into people’s holes…
14. I also love peanut butter. I enjoy it by the spoonful pretty often.
15. When I was a kid, I liked science better than any other subject in school. That’s because my teacher mistakenly treated me as though I was good at it, so I became good at it. I like to be the good guy…
16. I was “agnostic” in college, but looking back I think it was mostly a put-on. I wanted to be different than I had been growing up. I always felt like God was with me and it would all be okay.
17. I really do want to live some different, better way than just working and spending. So far, though, that's a FAIL.
18. I wish I had a talent, like photography, or painting or sculpting or playing a musical instrument.
19. I used to want to be an actor because it is energizing and freeing--acting is hiding in full sight.
20. For someone who tries to be nice, I sure owe some great people apologies.
21. I am a terrible friend, once I am separated by daily routine or distance.
22. My favorite times have been spent with a good friend in good conversation. I am a kind of addict to the intensity of that kind of evening.
23. I minored in History, but had more hours in Philosophy when I graduated. I wish that kind of study had given me some answers.
24. I am a flibbertigibbet, but I am trying to be grounded.
25. I have slept through whole portions of my time on Earth; in a daze, I accidentally neglected people I love. I try hard every day, now, to be awake to what is around me. I often fail, though.
Life is as thin as a thread and as delicate as the petals of a yellow wildflower. And as precious.


How's about some humble patriotism this morning, hmmm?


Halloween is on its way. Enjoy spookiness...

Caddo Lake, October 9-11, 2009 Stacy and I "enjoy" camping. Well, we like to go camping, anyway--how do you claim to enjoy doing something that you do maybe once each year? We like to camp and canoe and wander through the woods, but maybe we just WISH we really enjoyed it.

Check out that crazy spider web....

Anyway, we joined the Woodruffs (Mark, Leah and Morgan) and the Warners (Jen and Clint) at Caddo Lake State Park this past weekend. It never stopped drizzling, really, and we took Mia with us this time, partly from guilt at leaving her while the Woodruffs brought Morgan, and partly in the hopes that she would take to camping. Mia did have an alright time--Mia ALWAYS has an alright time!--but she got bored sitting around the campfire and wanted to run around like Morgan can; she tried during daylight hours, but I discouraged her when the light faded because she falls down on level ground. Stumpy trails are not a special-needs girl's best friend.... She also put up with canoeing, but really wanted to go home where cartoons come on TV, until we turned the canoe around and started singing silly songs (then, she was a trooper!).



Cuties on the ride up to the Rangers' Station

Whatever the weather, Caddo Lake is one of the most picturesque places I have been--it is no Grand Canyon, but it is a spooky, beautiful swamp, with bald cypress trees everywhere. Once the leaves turn (in another few weeks) the cypress boughs will be bright orange, and with the moss covering the limbs, they are haunting.

Take your camera, rent a canoe, and go enjoy an afternoon in swampy paradise.
Her Morning Elegance


Urban Listening

Comedy Gold: television news reporter edition

Thanks to the generosity of good friend, I have been able to read Donald Miller's latest book in its manuscript form. A Million Miles in a Thousand Years is so close to perfect--seriously, it is on the surface a book about editing Blue Like Jazz to make a movie, and thus editing Don's life. But is is about so much more, and it resonates completely through me (especially as I reach out to college students in and out of the classroom).

I could write and write to try to capture what is so beautiful about the book, but you just need to read it. Here's the first 30 pages for you:

A Million Miles In A Thousand Years by Donald Miller
August 27: Enter the Labyrinth

I swiped this explanation of a prayer labyrinth from the internets:

We are all on the path... exactly where we need to be. The labyrinth is a model of that path.

A labyrinth is an ancient symbol that relates to wholeness. It combines the imagery of the circle and the spiral into a meandering but purposeful path. The Labyrinth represents a journey to our own center and back again out into the world. Labyrinths have long been used as meditation and prayer tools.

A labyrinth is an archetype with which we can have a direct experience. We can walk it. It is a metaphor for life's journey. It is a symbol that creates a sacred space and place and takes us out of our ego to "That Which Is Within."

Labyrinths and mazes have often been confused. When most people hear of a labyrinth they think of a maze. A labyrinth is not a maze. A maze is like a puzzle to be solved. It has twists, turns, and blind alleys. It is a left brain task that requires logical, sequential, analytical activity to find the correct path into the maze and out.

A labyrinth has only one path. It is unicursal. The way in is the way out. There are no blind alleys. The path leads you on a circuitous path to the center and out again.

Anyway, Mosaic borrowed a prayer labyrinth from First Pres here in Tyler, and we set it up in the Public Library last night, August 27. No one else really ventured into it, but those of us who were there enjoyed it.




August 25: Lunch with Paul Bolding Paul and a bunch of friends from Marvin were heading to Frisco to see and hear Hillsong United lead worship. Before they fled, Paul and I stopped in to Subway for lunch, where I snapped some photos.






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Kirk and I had mediocre burgers at a place downtown, where they are particularly patriotic about their beef!

20 August, 2009


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Sunday, August 9



How's about some Sunday clouds for you?


Saturday, August 8: Morgan's Birthday!



I am told that Five is a fun year--I hope it's more than fun for Miss Morgan!

Friday, 8-07-2009 I got to have lunch with these two (see photo below) at Bruno's on Friday! Suzy and Mia were there, too...!
August 6, 2009:



After Rachel's going-away shindig, I went downtown to pick up Emily and Kathy. I got to watch the TPD pull Kathy over and give her a warning....

5 August, 2009


Yep, you guessed it: Ants attacking someone's discarded Lunchable. Aside from this, I got nothing!

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Terry showed Suzy and I around the new TFD super engine. It is massive!


Why do I love thee, O pitiful, short shell? Brady's Specialty Coffee, voted as my favorite refuge from reality, 2009



August 3


What a suck day Monday, 8/3 was!

Sunday, August 2

I didn't technically take this photo, so I guess I am a dirty, cheating fiend. Stacy took it. She's the reason there is a Sunday August 2 photo, and the reason I was out at the lake after church in the first place.

I did catch that fish on my own, though I was using my dad's rod and reel.

There is no health in me.


August 1st, 2009

We mistakenly refer to these insects as "locusts," though no one seems to know why. Their sound is inseparable from my childhood here in Eastern Texas. I like them.

From Wikipedia: "

A cicada (pronounced /sɪˈkeɪdə/) is an insect of the order Hemiptera, suborder Auchenorrhyncha, in the superfamily Cicadoidea, with large eyes wide apart on the head and usually transparent, well-veined wings. There are about 2,500 species of cicada around the world, and many remain unclassified. Cicadas live in temperate to tropical climates where they are among the most widely recognized of all insects, mainly due to their large size and remarkable acoustic talents. Cicadas are sometimes colloquially called "locusts",[1] although they are unrelated to true locusts, which are a kind of grasshopper. They are also known as "jar flies". Cicadas are related to leafhoppers and spittlebugs. In parts of the southern Appalachian Mountains in the United States they are known as "dry flies" because of the dry shell they leave behind.

Cicadas are benign to humans and do not bite or sting, but can be pests to several cultivated crops. Many people around the world regularly eat cicadas: the female is prized as it is meatier. Cicadas have been (or are still) eaten in Ancient Greece, China, Malaysia, Burma, Latin America, and the Congo. Shells of cicadas are employed in the traditional medicines of China.[2]

The name is a direct derivation of the Latin cicada, meaning "buzzer". In classical Greek it was called a tettix, and in modern Greek tzitzikas - both names being onomatopoeic."


July 31



Friday morning traffic on my sideview mirror, Paluxy and Loop 323

The tollway between 2661 and Paluxy


Thursday, July 30

Though I resist it every day, something in me knows that this crappy street is my birthright. On a rainy Thursday, as July dies a messy death, Erwin Street seems beautiful.
Wednesday, July 29

It was so good to have a bit of time with best-friend Morgan and family again.
Tuesday, July 28


Sleepy-eyed Mia at the dentist


Monday, July 27


I lost another couple of days this weekend. I know that Stacy and I went to the movies on Saturday night, and that I mowed on Saturday. Sunday, I taught Sunday school and lead worship because Paul was in Michigan. It was a busy weekend, but certainly not too busy for me to take a shot or two, at least with my iPhone....

Nevertheless, slacker that I am, I missed two days.

This sign was "vandalized" Sunday night. I drove past it this morning with Mia in the truck and had to swing back by to immortalize someone's (mild) creativity with this photo.

It's certainly not Shakespeare, but it made me smile.



Friday, July 24


I got up extra early to take Mia Emmeline to Dallas to Scottish Rite to have her braces adjusted. I took several good photos that day (can't find a single one for Thursday, though!) but below is the one for me to post.

I stepped outside as the sun came up--I saw the strangest color of fuchsia in our kitchen and wanted to make certain that nothing in our neighborhood was on fire.

And it was just the sky.

Sky on fire


Wednesday, July 22

I took Stacy to lunch on Wednesday--I was having a lousy day at work, so she suggested we go for a walk in the neighborhood across from the hospital where she works. We came upon this little impatient growing through a crack in the sidewalk; it was perfect, and perfectly out of place. It reminds me that we are where we are supposed to be.
Tuesday, July 21

This is my cousin, Roscoe. He has worked for our family's transmission shop since he was about 13, mowing and cleaning up, and now he is a great mechanic. Men in our family (aside from relatively-effeminate me) like to act tough, but they all have great hearts. Roscoe talks all sorts of crap, pretty much non stop, but he would do nearly anything to help other people.

July 20

There were a million birds in the sky Monday night outside of Best Buy. They sounded like Swallows, but were too far above me to be visually identified. Seriously, click on the photos below to enlarge them and witness just how many birds were there. And they were that dense from one side of the parking lot to the other!

July 19, 2009

July 19 is the birthday of my eldest niece, Melissa. I didn't call her to give her good wishes, but I thought about her all day.

We went to Ecclesia to worship in the morning, and I would have taken a photo there, but it seems to be in poor taste. Instead, here is downtown Buffalo, Texas, taken whilst driving 65 m.p.h. on the way home, yesterday.


Saturday, 18 July, 2009


We traveled to Houston this weekend to visit Kelly. On Saturday, we took Mia to a park in the middle of downtown, where they had tons of water games and kid aerobics going on for free, just for your average Saturday. I snapped this photo of grumpy Mia sitting at a cafe table. I love how she is reflected in the green tabletop.

July 17th, 2009


Trash Truck


Because of the general disorganization of my bill-paying system (if you can call it a system), the trash truck from the company that services our trash-generating home (filled with four adults and two children) neglected to take our trash Thursday. I promise I paid the bill, though the check didn't reach them in time. Anyway, I went ahead and carted our full can into town and disposed of its contents in the shop dumpster.

I think I am going to change trash companies. Not because they are wrong to cease serving us, but because they are snippy, and someone out there would likely be less so. That's the free market for you; right or wrong, based on fact, or on whimsy, the lousy public will do what we will do!

16 Jew-Lie (no antisemitism intended!)


This is a shot of the neighborhood beside and behind the shop where I work. I have had the opportunity to walk the streets back there and had the sense that there was a time--perhaps back in the 1950s--when this neighborhood was the epitome of the American Dream. Sure, the houses were small and tidy, but back then the "dream" was not that each American could have 4000 sq. ft. and a swimming pool, but that each could own something of a place of their own.

Today, the neighborhood behind the shop is the American nightmare: crack houses and other homes that are badly in need of major renovation, trash, junk, dead chickens (yes, I said dead chickens!) and other wreckage.

It's a different world from the one I live in, except that I am on the fringes of it for six to eight hours, Monday through Friday.

July 15


It is crazy hot in East Texas lately. I know, I know; it is ALWAYS hot here in July. But this year is even hotter, and it has been this was for weeks, already. Enjoy a bit of this Texas sunshine, if you need some:

All this photo needs is a pair of sunglasses and a smile!



14 July


The Ride: Well bicycle tour is traveling back through Tyler this week; they are all riding across the USA to raise money and awareness about the problem of potable water in Africa. The problem is huge and very solvable. Their response is also huge, and it makes me wish I was riding with them.

Breakfast this morning for the tour was provided by Pause



11 July


I went with Stacy and Jerelen and Jarrod to sing Karaoke. Whilst there, I had a large beer.


July Tenth, Two-Thousand and Nine


We (the Davidsons and the Dickersons) hosted "Ribs at the Crib," and drew a decently-sized group out to Flint. A good time was had!

Garrick and his big eye at "Ribs at the Crib"



9 July 2009



IKEA is so cool. They even have a play-area to allow parents an hour to lust for products kid-free....

Eighth-of-July, Two-thousand and Nine!


Happy Birthday, Suzy! (AND, WELCOME to life BABY AMELIA!)

Suzy, still sparkly-eyed after 44 years of schlepping this planet!

Amelia Lee, still cheesy-headed after wriggling her way into life on this planet!

July 07/2009


We finally purchased a bunk bed for Mia and Emily's room. Here's Brandon taking care of the minor assembly required...

Most of the "work" consisted of getting all the toys into a manageable pile so we'd have room to do the real work!

Mission completion!